I was sitting at dinner with an acquaintance. We were on a break from a business transformation retreat and just squeezing in a few more bites before heading back in. Out of nowhere, or so it seemed to me, she says, “You know, you are ‘half-fairy’, right?”
My brain stopped. What? Did I hear her correctly?
“Um, I am not sure what you mean. I’m what?” I sputtered out. Over the next hours I grappled with this and what she could have possibly meant and then when to ask a good friend. A person I was sure would say, “Oh, that’s silly” and everything would be right in my world again. But no, that friend replied, “Of course. Didn’t you know?”
Grinding halt, number 2. I asked Google. My friend reassured me. “Don’t worry about it. We’ll talk in the morning.” Ok, so for now I was just to sit on this idea and try to sleep.
In the morning, I found my friend first. She introduced me to two more people who could explain what all this supernatural talk meant.
Why did all of this fairy talk bother me so much?
For the past year I had been enrolled in an advanced business coaching course. How I saw myself was shifting. For the longest time, I had put others before me. Others’ dreams before my own and I had left my work to the very last moment of the day. I would send emails after the kids went to bed and wouldn’t take work that conflicted with my family’s needs. But all of that was starting to shift. From the outside, all was well and my business was growing. But on the inside, I was still putting myself and my work last.
When I heard the words, “half-fairy”, what I REALLY heard was ‘You are special.” “You are unique.” It was seeing something in me that I didn’t see for myself. I signed on with Business Reiki Master Victoria Whitfield and asked her all the questions that I didn’t understand about this fairy-business. But in the end, the work we did (and continue to do) centered around my own self-worth.
An Opportunity to Connect
As I have been working on the Creating Momentum Book, I have been asking what I could share that would make the biggest difference for you and I received this response:
“I am someone who has big goals and big dreams, but I keep getting pulled into distractions and losing focus on daily habits and such that would help me to be able to accomplish things other than basic mom stuff. I have stepped back into entrepreneurial ship and I'm hoping to pursue real estate investment in the future.”
I immediately saw myself in her words. I saw myself before the fairy revelation. I had big hopes and dreams, too! I kept getting distracted! I couldn’t form habits! I couldn’t accomplish anything beyond the basic mom stuff! I thought, at the time, that I was doing my family a favor to put their needs first. But the reality was that I was denying all the gifts that had been given to me. I was refusing to use them. I was operating on empty.
The Way Out
For me, the way forward began when I reconnected with myself and my dreams. Not just saying, “I hope to one day be a world renowned organizing and productivity consultant,” but actually acting like I already was one. It took seeing the Vision for myself and then acting in small ways as if it were already, true. From here, life become more and more joyful as I came back into alignment with the gifts I had been given.
Just for kicks, this summer, during my branding photoshoot with Ale B I had photos taken of myself dressed and positioned as the Archangel Jophiel. A further extension of seeing myself in this bigger, more special, more unique way. I’ve never shared them before. But for you….
Hi! I'm Nettie Owens, Certified Professional Organizer in Chronic Disorganization and Productivity Consultant.